So This is Love...Or is It?

My boyfriend, Zack, and I talk to each other on the phone almost everynight. We rarely see each other, due to the fact that we are in different schools; him the local high school, and me, a private grade school. Our phone conversations mainly consist of what is going on in each of our lives and how the week went at school. He is so sweet to me; treats me like a princess. He tells me how beautiful I am all the time, and he tells me how much he wants to hurt my ex. (Typical Boyfriend...HaHaHa...) On the weekends we normally manage to go out either to the movies or meet up at gathering at school. During the week, I miss him so much and I find myself day dreaming about him all the time. At the end of our phone conversations, we tell each other goodnight and then-. You know what I'm going to say. We tell each other I Love You. I think we mean it, but is there a way to be sure? I keep reading the verses from the Bible about love. Love is patient, Love is kind...and so on. According to those standards, we are in love. But many people would argue about our age. Not the age difference between him and I, for it is only a year and 30 days, but the fact that we are young teenagers. They don't know what love is. I can hear it now. So, does anyone really know the REAL meaning of love?...Am I in love? So I'll come back again...So This is Love...Or is It?

Future is Like a Black Hole

To me, right now, my future is like a black hole. I have no idea what I'm going to do in the future. I mean I have my interests, the ones that I know are feesible, and then the ones that I would love to be able to make happen. My parents have pounded many things into my head from the day I was born, but the one that is coming into usage lately is 'You can be anything you really want to be.' For the past few years, I wanted to be a meteorologist. I soon discovered what all I would have to do to fill this position. Meteorology is still one of my many interests, but I don't think I would be happy studying it for the rest of my life. I have always been a fan of a show down in Branson, Missouri called The Haygoods. The Haygoods consist of one sister and seven brothers. They work their butts off and put on the highest energy show in Branson, but they are having trouble pleasing everyone. When I was little, it was my dream to be a rockstar. When I reached the age of about 9 or 10, I discovered that was more than likely not going to happen. That year, we went down to Branson to find that The Haygoods had a theatre on the main strip in Branson (they started off in Silver Dollar City, a very popular theme park in the area). I was so happy for them! I then began thinking, 'Could I have a show in Branson? It isn't quite a rockstar job, but it sure is close!' Just a few days ago, I became aware of all of the hard work that it takes to be a preformer in Branson, not to mention all the money! Right now, I am trying to decide if I am willing to do all that work to have a show in Branson. I am beginning to ask myself why I wanted to do it in the first place, and if I could remain interested in it for the rest of my life. I have a lot of thinking to do, and I know I have a while to do it, but I am afraid that I will run out of time. Run out of time forgetting that I have to think about what I would like to do after I get out of high school. I hope it will clear up, but right now, my future is like a big black hole. I don't know where it leads to...yet.